Same tedious disclaimers, different tedious story. No sex here. Virtual chocolates, kisses and cheese to everyone who wrote me, vaguely interested in this sequel. I seem to have run into a rather large writer's block. See results below. Picks up immediately after A Nunnery left off. Picture if you will: There was Xavier, pushing and pulling into Magneto’s touch. There he was, devouring Magneto while begging to be crushed in his arms. There was Wolverine, his mouth a tight line, his gaze at once indifferent and betrayed.
A NUNNERY: PART THE
SECOND
by Lucrecia Borgia
The silence threatened.
Magneto pulled back from the embrace and now
sat next to Xavier. Eyebrow arched speculatively, his glance drifted between the
two men. More curious than uncomfortable, he kept a hand at Charles' back, as
his arm rested on a sofa cushion. He didn't press, didn't
soothe.
Xavier was well aware of the strangely assured warmth at his
back, and, reluctant to break contact, leaned into it imperceptibly. Words
failed him. He blinked at Wolverine, silently pleading for patience he knew he
didn't deserve. He briefly considered reaching out to Logan's mind: that
intimate contact may reassure the other man of Xavier's loyalty and affection.
The psi abilities enveloped where words were distant and coarse. Xavier
dismissed the consideration; such a move would violate Logan, and Logan realized
it.
Logan also realized the lingering caress at Xavier's back. The
steady, unapologetic glances from Magneto and the imploring set of Xavier's
countenance infuriated him. Shock gave way to familiar anger. Xavier sensed the
change in disposition, and was unable to maintain eye contact. He furtively
strained his head away from both Logan and Magnus, looking at the
carpet.
No longer able to take visual cues from Charles, Magnus looked
directly at Wolverine. He saw Logan's arm reach up a split second before it
descended in a quick, efficient arc. Magneto deflected the blow, twitching his
head at the glint of metal in the claws. Charles gathered further into himself,
almost crouching near the sofa's edge. The move took him out of Magnus' touch,
and the break seemed to liberate Magneto.
Wolverine was incensed. He was
convinced of his right--Charles betrayed him, with Magneto. The overwhelmed
disgust made its way from the pit of his stomach to his throat, his arms, his
legs. Later, he knew, the doubt would settle in his knees and jaw. They would
buckle and fall, and he wanted to be--he had to be--alone for that break. Now,
this sort of righteous outrage was a comfortable moral position for Logan, and
he relied on comfortable application: violence.
He lashed at Magneto, at
Xavier. The claws were drawn, muscles tightly defined in his compact form.
Logan's lips were drawn back in a snarl that displayed more than sharp white
teeth. The strained tendons drew attention to the angled set of his jaw, the
furrowed brow, the eyes wilder than Magneto had ever seen
them.
Magnetically fielding the blows for both himself and Xavier taxed
Magnus. Wolverine, wild and uncomplicated, was far more intimidating than
Magneto would admit. He had rarely faced an enemy--and Wolverine was an
enemy--so feral. His most significant adversaries were not animalistic or
passionate. They were sure, calm, workmanlike. Their strengths were efficiently
divided and efforts carefully meted out for optimum results. They, completely
without irony or the cackle of cartoon villainy, beamed at their destructive
accomplishments.
"One may smile, and smile, and still be a villain." The
invasive thought was as clear to Magnus as if Charles spoke it aloud. It was the
first thing Charles communicated to him since Wolverine's intrusion. Magnus
welcomed it, the provoking banter of their earlier conversation grounding him in
the present bizarre scenario.
Wolverine would never be a Nazi. He was too
invested in himself. Magnus knew this rage wasn't fueled by any moral
disappointment that Xavier betrayed his dream and let the X-men down. Magnus
knew Logan was betrayed personally. Knowing full well the superior extent of
Magnus' powers, knowing he couldn't harm either man, Logan's intense fury wasn't
pragmatic. It was passionate. And unyielding.
This time Charles spoke
aloud, startling Wolverine, who hadn't appreciated how his friend composed
himself almost immediately upon the attack. "Logan."
Harsh, labored
breaths replaced the swinging arms and jabbing legs. Logan refused to look at
Charles, instead still cautiously eyeing Magneto. Magnus resumed his hastened
glance between the two men. He, too was exhausted, though more adept at
disguising it. Wolverine, he realized, didn't disguise anything.
Charles,
for the first time, looked sharply, swiftly, at Magnus. "Logan . . doesn't
disguise anything."
Wolverine was oddly relieved at not being directly
confronted. He wasn't sure how to approach Xavier. He didn't want to make it
simple for Charles to dismiss him, to placate him. He knew, almost
unconsciously, he didn't want to alienate or harm Charles in a way that was
detrimental to the X-men. His breathing slowed as he listened to Xavier talk
about him.
"He can't disguise anything with us, Magnus," Charles
continued. He returned his gaze to Wolverine, though still ostensibly addressing
Magneto. "Because of you. You took his invulnerability when you hurt him. He
knows either one of us could do it again. He knows with you it's a very real
possibility, and my loving you tacitly accepts that, and the difficult, implicit
trust he has for me . . "
Magnus chuckled. Leave it to Charles to analyze
Wolverine in full attack mode. Wolverine then struck Xavier with a force neither
one prepared for. Wolverine cringed before any real damage was done to Xavier's
scalp and ear, where the claws struck him. Magneto was horrified at his own
inability to act, and moved toward Wolverine. A clear, inner "No" stopped him.
It was enough. Charles didn't waver. He continued to look at Logan.
"It's
a flesh wound. My skull and my skin are thicker than you give me credit for,
Logan."
Wolverine opened his mouth to apologize. He couldn't. He wasn't
sorry. He wanted to hurt Charles. He wasn't sure he had. A persistent thought
nagged at him: he behaved just as both Charles and Magneto expected him to. They
had the upper hand.
But then he looked at Charles, utterly sincere and
strong, and knew he gave Charles the upper hand. He trusted
Charles.
Reading his body language was easier than reading his mind,
Charles mused as he reassured his friend, "I'll never leave you, Logan. This",
he gestured with a wry graciousness familiar to both Magnus and Logan, "is my
home. My home. I will not betray it. I will not betray you."
Wolverine's
wrath faded, but his sense of betrayal did not. "You," he spoke slowly, unsure
of how to phrase, "betray . . yourself." He paused. He didn't want to condemn
Charles, didn't want to examine the source of his betrayal. He didn't want
Charles, not sexually, but to have that part of Charles' life--the only part he
didn't share--invaded by . . this man, this villain, this terror . . broke his
heart. His spirit. But surely Charles knew that. Surely Magneto knew that.
"Please," he began.
"Yes," Xavier said, anticipating Logan's train of
thought, not sure of the precise language. Please love me, trust me, assure me .
. .
Logan surprised him by shaking his head. "Magneto," he started again,
barely able to keep the sneer from his lips as he repeated the request, "please
stay away from him. Please. Just stay away from him." Logan's voice was steady,
firm. He was asking, not ordering, refusing to plead.
"Yes," Magneto
found himself saying. "I'll stay away from him."
The blood dripping from
Xavier's wound slowly stopped. Magnus sped the healing process without drawing
attention to the act. It was a flesh wound, but the gash was deeper than Charles
allowed, and it must have pained him. Magnus frowned in empathy. Charles inhaled
and nearly gawked at his lover. The response came as much as a surprise to him
as it did to its speaker. Magneto longed to embrace him, to comfort him.
Instead, he shrugged minutely, and left.
Wolverine didn't trust himself
to move. Charles didn't want to. The gash in his skull started to pound, and he
didn't do anything to stop it. It was diverting, to focus on the pain. "He just
went upstairs, Logan. He's not leaving." Throughout the ordeal, Xavier
maintained a facile psychic contact with Magneto, and followed his movements
upstairs.
"I don't care what the hell he does." Wolverine realized it was
true.
"I do." A pause, then a slightly more emphasized, "I have
to."
And Wolverine realized that was true, also. Perhaps this was the
result of identities so inextricably bound with each other. He idly
speculated at his own relationship with Sabertooth, visibly winced and nearly
snorted. Perhaps not.
"I love him, you know." Charles' voice remained
wary, but its retained its knowing, almost smug, timbre. His absolute surety
consoled Wolverine more than words. Charles wasn't questioning his ethical
parameters.
"I don't care."
"Logan,"
"I don't care. I don't
care." He was pacing now, shaking his head. "I want him away from you." Talking
to himself as much as Xavier, his voice was monotone. "I don't care. He's . .
away from you. I don't care." Nothing else mattered.
Xavier shifted
nearer his chair, realizing only now how cool the evening had become. He wanted
to be with Magnus. He wanted to touch him, to feel Magnus' mouth on his, to feel
the muscles in Magnus' arms tensing around him, to inhale Magnus' scent, to
sense Magnus' pectorals expand with breathy signs. He wanted to be with Magnus,
whom he realized was leaving, after all. Magnus was keeping his
word.
"I'm going upstairs . . "
"I don't care."
Xavier
quickly lifted himself to the chair, and left. He wasn't sure if the sounds he
left were sobs or growls. It didn't matter.
PART THE THIRD: Alas, poor Magnus, I knew him biblically,
Logan.
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